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noreply@blogger.com (.) — Wed, 28 Jan 2009 22:22:00 +0000

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Have you heard?!

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 10:03:00 +0000

E=MC2 (bye bye)

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Fri, 23 May 2008 09:12:00 +0000

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

awesomeness

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 02:49:00 +0000

"One of the most amazing thing in the world is having someone fall inlove with you. whom you thought you never had a chance with."

I want you...DON'T BREAK ME

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 18:31:00 +0000

I want to able to watch the sunrise in silence and have hours of silent conversations I want you to know how I take my coffee you have to have a strong voice and opinion and be able to argue with me and prove me wrong I want to do laundry together you have to be able to make me laugh for no reason and watch those sappy love movies once in awhile I want you to know how I take my eggs I never want to grow tired of photographing you you have to have patience with me I want you to be my teacher, and vice versa in a room full of people, I want you to only see me I want you to know the words to my favorite song I want you to be my best friend and also my lover you have to appreciate my art and be a part of the stories behind it I want your face to light up when I walk into the room I want to sit next to you and have that be enough I want to debate whether the sun will rise you have to be honest with me and let me know what you feel I want you to never break a promise and never take more than you can give back I want you to bring more to my life and I want to bring more to yours I want you to wipe away my tears and stand behind me even if you think I'm wrong I want you to know the words to make it right and to know just when to say them I want to wish away the clouds in your life and make your sun a little brighter for the day I want you to run your fingers through my hair and memorize how it falls around my neck... I want you to love me.. Don't break me..

sink

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Wed, 02 Apr 2008 05:13:00 +0000

It's funny how my emotions sinks down with the sunset...

sometimes...

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 07:12:00 +0000

you think it's a start of something wonderful but then you end up realizing that it's not...
and there's nothing to do but be ok with that even if you don't want to...

sa dulo

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 09:40:00 +0000

Ang hirap umalis
Lalo pa't sana'y nang nakatayo at naghihintay
Nalimutan na kung paano maglakad
Tila may isang malaking bakal nakatali sa mga paa
Parang presong di makalayo
Bawat hakbang papalayo ay isang taga sa braso

Naglakad papalayo.
PInilit buhatin bakal sa paa
Mga taga sa braso pinilit maghilom.

Malayo na ang nalakad
Mga bakal sa binti di na iniinda
Mga sugat sa braso tuluyan na ding naghilom.
Boses mo'y naririnig pa rin.

Gustong kang lingunin
Gusto kang balikan

Kabado
Tibok ng puso'y bumibilis
Tinatawag mo'y pangalan ko

Patuloy ang paghakbang
Papalayo ng papalayo
Bawat hakbang bumibigat
Mga sugat sa braso'y nagsimulang mag dugo

TInig mo'y lumalakas
Tibok ng puso'y bumibilis
Pilit binibilisan, paglakad na hirap
Bumibigat ang bakal
Napapagal na mga binti
Patuloy ang daloy ng dugong mula sa sugat

Huminto
Huminto at nagpahinga
Huminga

Malapit na sa dulo
Hindi na lilingon muli
Titiisin ang bigat
Hahayaan ang dugo sa patuloy na pag-agos

Tatawirin tulay na makitid
Tutungo sa dulo
Sa dulo
Sa dulo kung saan may nag-aabang
Sa dulo
Sa dulo kung saan may magtatanggal ng mga bakal sa binting pagal
Sa dulo
Sa dulo kung saan may gagamot ng mga sugat.

klaubette

I speak not

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Thu, 17 Jan 2008 04:20:00 +0000

I speak not, I trace not, I breathe not thy name;
There is grief in the sound, there is guilt in the fame;
But the tear that now burns on my cheek may impart
The deep thoughts that dwell in that silence of heart.
Too brief for our passion, too long for our peace,
Were those hours - can their joy or their bitterness cease?
We repent, we abjure, we will break from our chain, -
We will part, we will fly to - unite it again!
Oh! thine be the gladness, and mine be the guilt!
Forgive me, adored one! - forsake if thou wilt;
But the heart which is thine shall expire undebased,
And man shall not break it - whatever thou may'st.
And stern to the haughty, but humble to thee,
This soul in its bitterest blackness shall be;
And our days seem as swift, and our moments more sweet,
With thee at my side, than with worlds at our feet.
One sigh of thy sorrow, one look of thy love,
Shall turn me or fix, shall reward or reprove.
And the heartless may wonder at all I resign -
Thy lips shall reply, not to them, but to mine.

`Lord Byron

loving you

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Mon, 10 Sep 2007 05:37:00 +0000

Loving you has introduced me to so many new feelings. I guess thats what loving does for a person. It makes you settle for less and it introduces you to so many unfamiliar things and feelings. Every person that enters our lives has their own ways of being significant to us. It surprises me that everyday you give me so many more reasons to smile. You surprise me...it surprises me that I remember every single detail that you say about yourself to me that somehow before the day ends YOU will slip into my mind. There are times where the thought of you makes me smile...and there are just days where the thought of you makes me sad. Only because somehow I know that thoughts of you arent enough and because at the back of my mind there are just times where I just wanna give up. But then again...how can I give up? How can I give up when I cant even let you go? The grips too tight...It makes me sad because I am scared that I might not be able to spend time with you watching the sunset or watching a movie or going out of town and discovering new places. I wanna do those things with you. I want to introduce you to so many wonderful feelings just like what youve done to me...I wanna go to places that I have never been before and expirience their culture with you. I just...wanna be with you...

Sometimes I wonder if you think of me just like how I think of you...if you remember the small things about me that I tell you just like how I remember those of you...maybe not...Sometimes i just wanna get tired already. Get tired of holding on to something that is not so sure. This maybe the biggets cliche...but how can something that is wrong and unsure make you feel RIGHT and SURE just the thought of it? Writing this letters has made life a little easier for me. Because somehow I get to let you know how I feel or let someone know how I feel for you for that matter. You may not get the chance to read this...I may not be able to tell you all this in person. But atleast I have shown you and told the world how important you are to me.

exerpts from the original blog entry @ micuore.blogdrive.com

settling for less

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Sun, 09 Sep 2007 10:03:00 +0000

Todays you're birthday...

I was so ecstatic the whole day...thinking how you reacted to the birthday box I sent you. Wondering why you haven't texted me yet that you've received it. A little bit worried that it might've not arrived on time or worse...I got the wrong address.
Then I texted you fine it was just a forwarded message but I was thinking that might start the conversation. And off course I was right! You replied by saying that I rock and that you loved everything in it. I was smiling by myself for about 30 minutes. Then I replied that I'm glad you liked it.

Then I started crying...pathetic I know. But it was all tears of joy. Holy crap I even remember hearing myself say that I can die now because for the first time in ages I made you happy thinking how much I made you're day. I know...this love sucks. Its making me so dramatic and pathetic. But on the brighter side I realized how much you've taught me. You have taught me to love selflessly and unconditionally. Not thinking if I would get something in return. And just as I have said in the long run...it wouldn't matter if well end up together because I know that whatever the outcome may be...I will still have you even just for a friend.

Loving someone really makes someone settle for less huh? Settle for whatever it is that comes close. I wouldn't deny the fact that sometimes I still wish that wed end up together instead of you ending up with someone else but in reality...deep in my heart all I ever wanted is for you to be happy. And I know that if I'm not the right one for you...in the end GOD will heal me and give someone that will make me feel a far more wonderful feeling than what I now have for you.

happy birthday...ü

entry originally posted @ micuore.blogdrive.com

curse

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Sun, 26 Aug 2007 15:31:00 +0000

I hope that she will love you more than anything in the world. And I hope that she is as wonderful as you are, would make you feel the way you make me feel, for there's no other feeling greater than that. You are indeed GOD's prove of his love for me, even better than I expected.

I don't know what will happen to "us" now that you finally got what you wanted...

But I will never stop writing poems and letters for you.
You will always make me feel like a kid on Christmas day.
You will always fascinate me like pink does...even more.
Nothing will ever make me smile like cartoons but you.
And two things will only make me giggle in this lifetime...
You and orange juice (okay maybe mark wahlberg too)
And you will ALWAYS be my sugar crystals.

I hope one day I can still meet you in the middle of that bridge
See you smile
Watch you talk
listen to what you have to say
and be mine.

And when I am old and all wrinkly...there will only be 2 men I can speak of with so much passion.
You that I will always love
and HIM that will love me as soon as he finds me.

I am closer than you think I am.

entry originally posted @ bettylicious.blogdrive.com

I'm coming home

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Tue, 17 Apr 2007 05:30:00 +0000

Just as the fray's song goes "there are certain people you just keep coming back to..." For 4 years I kept on telling myself that I am over you. I have been in and out of relationships, even thought that I finally found the person that I'de spend the rest of my life with. But then you kept on haunting me. The person that made me feel special in many more ways, the person that I thought I'de spend the rest of my life with, the person whom I thouht finally stole my heart from you...is you're bestfriend. No he doesn't know how much you mean to me. I didn't do it on purpose either. 3 years of not having communication with you made me realize that WE are not meant to be...or so I thought... Seeing you again after 3 years felt like I was back to never never land. You still have the same effect on me, as if it was just yesterday that you told me you love me. And not just like any other, my knees weakened and my heart was thumping like a bunny on ecstacy. My smile won't seem to fade... You made me realize that the relationship I have with you're friend is not perfect after all, infact you opened my eyes to the fact that I should be treated better than he treats me. So I gave it up. It wasnt easy doing so, because I have loved him as best as I can and I gave everything I can. But it didnt worked...its just not meant to be...

Now you're there. Single, just like me. After 4 years its as if we we're back to the same old game that we use to play. The foundation is so much stronger this time. We are friends, the trust and honesty are there to back up the "relationship" that we have. You still have the same effect on me, and you are claiming that we are friends...nothing more...

Over the years, my prayers never stopped. We had an unfinished business and all I ever wanted ever since is a closure. I want us to be atleast friends. I thought maybe in that case this feeling would just go away. And now after 4 years you came walking into my life again, now that we're friends I am not sure if I want us to remain friends...JUST friends.

I know somehow at the back of my mind being an "item" is just not possible right now. But I want you to know how grateful I am for having you in my life right now. For the conversations in the wee hours of the morning, for bringing me where I need to be when I am drunk, for making me smile on times when I feel like the world has turn its back on me, and for continously making me believe that miracles happen and prayers can be answered...

blog entry orginally posted @ micuore.blogdrive.com

blind me

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Mon, 09 Apr 2007 13:48:00 +0000

It's funny how one incident can change you're life forever. And it's just crazy how most of the time we are afraid of being involved with someone just because that person doesn't fit our definition of "ideal". I would often wonder what the world would be like if every single person in this world is blind...literally blind. Love would be a different scenario. It would have a whole different meaning to each and everyone because people will not look at you and despise you or change their minds about you just because you're a little too overweight or you're clothes are weird. People will pay more attention to what you have to say and they will liseten very patiently to what you're heart beats for. You're hearts will talk to each other, you're touch would define who you are and you're voice will express what you feel. The kind of world I wish to live in. But...that's not the way it is. The world is too cruel and time is too fast paced to take time for things like listening to the heart of someone. And life...life would be blunt. The sunset and sunrise, even the stars would be useless if we're all blind, for we wouldn't see how they shine for us...

ME? I'd rather be blind for you...

photo from deviantart.com
entry originally posted @ bettylicious.blogdrive.com

tuwing makikita ka

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Thu, 15 Mar 2007 17:49:00 +0000

Tuwing makikita ka
Ngiti'y gumuguhit
Sa mga labing walang nais
kundi ang dumampi sa iyo

Tuwing makikita ka
tibok ng puso'y walang tigil
bumibilis na tila hinahabol
Sinisigaw pangalan mo

Tuwing makikita ka
pilit winawaksi pag-ibig na wagas
Tuwing makikita ka
tanong sa sarili
hanggang kelan ka mamahalin ng palihim?

Tuwing makikita ka
dalangin sa langit
makasama ka

Tuwing makikita ka
pinipikit mga matang ikaw lamang ang na aaninag

Tuwing makikita ka
matahang hinahaplos
mga larawan mong buhay
Tuwing makikita ka
iniisip ng maigi
kailan nga ba?
Kailan matatapos
ang pagkikita
ang paghaplos
ang mga halik
ang mga ngitian at pag-uusap
na sa panaginip lamang?

entry originally posted @ bettylicious.blogdrive.com

YOU

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Sun, 11 Mar 2007 19:00:00 +0000

I dont know what Gods purpose is for letting you come back to my life just like that. You've been away for uite sometime and honestly even if I have been hoping all along for you to come back...I never believed you would. Over the years I would still sometimes sit and wonder what if...what if you came back to me? And then you did...I was never the same again. Youre come back opened my eyes to so many things. Good and bad. I never expected we would be as close as we are now. Funny were even closer than before.

There are days where I just wanna let go. Being in the position that I am its not easy holding youre feelings back to someone so close. As much as I want to keep this so-called relationship JUST pure friendship somehow.sometimes at the back of my head THIS feelings still keeps on haunting me. No its not easy looking at someone in the eyes and realizing that you can never hold them and call them yours. But then again...more often than not I still thank the LORD for bringing you back into my life...again in time were Im not expecting you.

Last night I prayed for GOD to just take away this feelings if ITS really not meant to be. I asked him to help me let go. And then I told him how much I wanted to be with you. Then I asked him to help me be more patient and give me more strength if this LOVE is meant to be. I wanna believe that he will do whatever it is thats gonna make me happy whatever it is that will complete me.whatever its is thats good for me and him. whatever it is...I will still love god.

I dont think I can ever stop loving you. No matter what happens I know the love I have for you will always be there. It can never be erased. Not by time nor by loving someone else. Atleast 1/3 of my heart will always belong to you...scary I know...but thats how its gonna be...I know...I just know...

entry orginally posted @ micuore.blogdrive.com

deep within me

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Mon, 18 Apr 2005 07:00:00 +0000

4 corners of the room,

I stare at the pitch-black ceiling point blank.

Wasted by liquor, drowned by my emotions.

Deep within me, a heart that wonders and a

Soul that wanders.

A body that’s tired, too numb to feel

A mind that’s not functioning well enough to think.

Deep within me are regrets

Deep within me are questions

Never in my life, I’ve felt so alone,

Abandoned by the world.

Deep within me is a child that cries,

Longing for understanding by people who cares

Deep within me is a voice that yells,

Screaming for help to those who understands.

Others think I’m strong and can carry the world.

But deep within me is a weak sheep that longs for a hug and

A shoulder to cry on.

Nobody knows who I really am,

Nobody knows what I can become.

Deep within me is a person

Deep within me is a child

Deep within me is a voice

Deep within me are the weaknesses I have.

Words may leave unspoken, actions never shown

Feelings never expressed.

But deep within me is what I really am.

This is more than my heart speaking, more than my soul is feeling

And more than my body could ever show.

Deep within me…deep within klaubette.

entry originally posted @ bettylicious.blogdrive.com

broken rainbow

noreply@blogger.com (.) — Fri, 24 Sep 2004 08:12:00 +0000

"If I was the one who was loving you baby, the only tears you cry would be tears of joy. And if I was by your side, you never know one lonely night. And if t'was my arms you were running to baby, loving this arms of mine…if I was the one in your life…"

Yan ang paulit ulit na tumutugtog sa isip ko…paulit ulit na kinakanta ng puso ko, kapag nakapikit ang mga mata ko at imahen mo ang nakikita. Isip ko, buti pa ang imahinasyon ko nakikita,nararamdaman at nahahawakan ka. Samantalang ang buong pagkatao ko na wala ng maramdaman kundi pagmamahal sayo eh ni hindi ka man lang maabot ng tingin…

Mabuti pa yung mga puno ng niyog, magiliw na naipapaspas ang mga dahon nila. Malayang nadadala ng hangin ang bawat piraso ng mga dahon. Hindi man nakikita ng niyog ang hangin, ramdam niya na andyan siya. Andyan para patuloy na pasayawin ang bawat sanga ng niyog sa tugtog na sila lamang ang nakakaintindi.

Ilang beses naba, ilang beses mo ng ipinaramdam sa akin na hindi ikaw ang lalake para sa akin, na hindi ako ang babae na makapagpapasaya sayo? Ilang beses ko naba na naramdaman ang masaktan ng sobra? Ang maramdaman na ginamit at pinaasa mo lang ako? Ilang beses ko na rin bang pilit sinasaksak sa kukute kong makulit na hindi ko talaga kaya na tigilan kang mahalin? Ang pilitin kang makalimutan? MAHAL KITA…pasensya, tao lang. Hindi kahit kelan ko kayang pigilan at turuan ang puso ko kung kanino at kung kelan titibok. At ilang beses ka na bang nagmahal ng iba at kinalimutan ako? Kinalimutan na parang ni hindi ako dumaan isang araw sa buhay mo? Masakit isipin na ikaw masaya habang ako eh wala pa rin ibang inisip kundi ang makasama ka.

Sa wakas, pagkatapos ng mahabang panahon, matapos ang walang humpay na pag-iyak gabi-gabi, ang walang katapusang pagsumpa sayo, ang walang kasing lutong na pagmumura na hindi na uli magpapakatanga sa pagmamahal…nalimutan kita. Nalimutan kong minsan eh may minahal ako na tulad mo. Ilang panahon palang ang nakakalipas, may dumating sa buhay ko…hindi pa sigurado pero sabi ko sa sarili ko eto na, magmamahal na ko uli. At sa unang pagkakataon hindi ako nagmamadali na maging "kami" naging masaya na ako sa kung ano man ang meron kami sa ngayon…magkaibigan kami. More than friends but not lovers at far from being MU, yun ang laging sagot ko sa mga nagtatanong. Masaya na ko. pero hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga ang meron ka…isang araw nalaman ko may girlfriend ka daw…hindi ako matahimik, di matahimik yung isip ko at nagngingitngit yung puso ko. hanggang sa mapatunayan kong, oo nga at nagmahal ka na ng iba hindi na yung babaeng may mahal na iba ang mahal mo ngayon. Kahit na masakit, isip ko buti na yon atleast now mahal ka na rin ng mahal mo. I should be happy for you! Tanda ko pa nga na sabi ko sayo, masaya ako para sayo. Eh sino ang niloko ko? sarili ko? masakit pa rin sa akin, bakit ganoon? Akala ko ba limot na kita? Hindi ko nanaman alam ang gagawin ko…

Ilang lingo lang nakalipas,nalaman ko break na kayo…sumaya ako! Pilit kong pinigilanyung kasiyahan ko, sabi ko hindi ako dapat maging masaya na hiwalay na kayo dahil malungkot ka, dahil nasaktan ka, dahil sa pangalawang pagkakataon eto ka nanaman at mniserable ang buhay. Ayokong maramdaman mo uli yung sakit nay yon, masakit, alam ko kung gaano kahirap. Hindi madali magmahal at lalong hindi madali ang masakatan at mag move on…at noon ko lang napatunayan sa sarili ko na oo nga at MAHAL pa KITA. Hindi yon nawala, natulog lang at pinagpahinga ng panahon. Ngayon eto nanaman ako…walang kadaladala, muli nanaman binuhay ang pagmamahal sayo. Wala nanamang takot na inamin sayo na ikaw talaga ang mahal ko, na TAO lang ako at hindi ko kaya pigilan yung sarili ko na mahalin ka dahil kahit ano ang gawin ko, ikaw talaga ang sinisigaw ng puso ko. sabi mo wag ikaw, sabi ko ikaw ang gusto ko. ngayon eto nanaman at umaasa ako, umaasa na dadating yung panahon na mamahalin mo din ako. Na makikita at mararamdaman mo din na ako ang makapagpapasaya sayo…wala ng iba. Pinapangarap ko na dadating din ang panahon na makikita mo ang lahat ng mga nagawa at ginagawa ko sayo. Katwiran ko " I have to be patient, my time will come. He just needs time to realize who's gonna be there for him no matter what. Kung sino ang di siya sasaktan." Naisip ko, kahit na paulit-ulit mo pa akong gamitin ayos lang. kahit paulit ulit mo akong paglaruan, balikan, iwan at balikan uli ayos lang. kung ano makapagpapasaya sayo masaya na din ako. Hihintayin kita kahit pa abutin ako ng 30 anyos hanggat di ka nag-aasawa di mawawala ang pag-asa ko.

Agresibo, boba, tanga, martyr call me all you want, wala akong pakielam. MAHAL ko siya. No one could ever take that away and no one could ever change that. I've changed because of him. Life became more challenging and meaningful because of him. He's this one person that could make me smile in times I thought I could never smile again. He was there when no one seems to care, he made me a better person. A stronger individual. Made me do things that I never, not even in my wildest dreams ever thought of doing. MAHAL ko siya, hindi niya ako gusto, wala ako magagawa di ko kontrolado ang puso at isip niya. Maghihintay ako…yun ang sigurado…sensya…TAO lang.

klaubette ü

entry originally posted @ someotherday.blogdrive.com