YOU

I dont know what Gods purpose is for letting you come back to my life just like that. You've been away for uite sometime and honestly even if I have been hoping all along for you to come back...I never believed you would. Over the years I would still sometimes sit and wonder what if...what if you came back to me? And then you did...I was never the same again. Youre come back opened my eyes to so many things. Good and bad. I never expected we would be as close as we are now. Funny were even closer than before.

There are days where I just wanna let go. Being in the position that I am its not easy holding youre feelings back to someone so close. As much as I want to keep this so-called relationship JUST pure friendship somehow.sometimes at the back of my head THIS feelings still keeps on haunting me. No its not easy looking at someone in the eyes and realizing that you can never hold them and call them yours. But then again...more often than not I still thank the LORD for bringing you back into my life...again in time were Im not expecting you.

Last night I prayed for GOD to just take away this feelings if ITS really not meant to be. I asked him to help me let go. And then I told him how much I wanted to be with you. Then I asked him to help me be more patient and give me more strength if this LOVE is meant to be. I wanna believe that he will do whatever it is thats gonna make me happy whatever it is that will complete me.whatever its is thats good for me and him. whatever it is...I will still love god.

I dont think I can ever stop loving you. No matter what happens I know the love I have for you will always be there. It can never be erased. Not by time nor by loving someone else. Atleast 1/3 of my heart will always belong to you...scary I know...but thats how its gonna be...I know...I just know...

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